Was mich nicht umbringt, macht mich stärker

[petermarcus]

There are times to guide one's life, to make conscious choices knowing in advance that the choices, though necessary, will change everything. Then, there are times when one has no choice but to hang on and just ride things out. Fate resents the backseat driver.

There's something on the horizon of my life, sweeping in like dark, billowing clouds riding a front. There's a smell in the air like the metallic, smokey smell of snow about an hour before it starts to really come down.

The cliches are thick tonight, but I've had this prescient feeling several times; it usually comes before a big life change. I'm always better for it...and why not? It is because of the changes in my past that I'm the person I am today. Maybe that's not as dramatic as Nietzche, but then, neither am I.

Comments

[wolfiegirl.livejournal.com]

So are you excited or scared?

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[petermarcus.livejournal.com]

I dunno, a little of both. I've always thought predicting the future was like predicting the weather -- it's easier (and more accurate) to do it a few hours in advance as opposed to a month in advance. All that butterfly effect stuff. But there are weather trends (like knowing winter is coming, even though it's still warmish here) and these feelings usually end up being one of those types of things -- something that'll probably happen by the end of the year or so.

weird

[wolfiegirl.livejournal.com]

Want to hear something odd? Here was my horoscope for today. Sounds like I should have been having the "something's coming" premonitions that you are...

Congratulates yourself for being in the right place at the right time. The ripples spread outward at an amazing rate. From this point,
expect to lead a fundamentally changed life.

Re: weird

[petermarcus.livejournal.com]

Sounds good for you, I wish I had something that optimistic.

Back in '93, I was sitting on my back deck in Florida, having a smoke, and watching a thunderstorm roll in off the Everglades. Got that same feeling. Two months later I was unemployed and scrambling for rent money. A month or two of really having no money at all, skipping meals, all that stuff. Then, I got a new job in Atlanta, making just about twice what I made in Florida, concentrating in a technology that is now my specialty. Good result, annoying while it was going on ;)

Re: weird

[wolfiegirl.livejournal.com]

Wow, that had to suck there during those couple of months, but I'm glad to hear how well it turned out in the end! :)